Running slow this morning. I didn’t sleep well last night. That’s not true, I feel I slept pretty well but only 4-5 hours, just couldn’t fall back asleep. It happens.

For me rough mornings can be make or break. If I don’t start the day with some momentum, I begin fighting the resignation of a lost day.

So my acceptance of defeat started early this morning as I jumped into a computer game like so many times before.

And yet, I’m now at a coffee shop writing this. I did it. I pulled myself out of the malaise just enough to stop the game and get myself somewhere I feel a bit more inspiration.

Naturally, the coffee shop’s internet isn’t working so I can’t do the work I was planning on doing which is why I’m writing this now. Best laid plans and all….

I’ve been putting off writing for years.

Granted I’ve been doing that for a lot of things.

Probably the momentum issue above.

There’s a fine line between development and procrastination. Between recovery and laziness.

It has been a combination of forces from lack of focus, consistency, and ability to structure stuff along with too many options, and little confidence to make up for those gaps.

I know what my weaknesses are. Have for years. I have tried lots of ways to solve them or at least bypass them. But of course, the only way that may actually work is just doing the work however small, however inconsistently.

So with this blog I’m attempting to do the one thing that has evaded me for years, the obvious and yet incredibly difficult solution. Taking the first step forward.